over the years of my life, different situations have brought up different reactions physically, mentally, and spiritually. one that has impacted me the most is love. i can still feel the effects now. love does some things that are unusual in our daily pattern of life. it gives us deeper abilities in perception, wisdom, and insight. it leaves us thinking of what to do, why do, and how to do. it leaves us in a abstract plain unique in comfort and feeling. it gives us so many things we may not see right away or see at all. but when it leaves...it seems all is lost. i struggle to find it again. it took away more than i could ever imagine. it added to my thoughts, true, but it took away some of my abilities, my attributes. it left me heartless, confused, lost, and lonely...i feel it even now...the loss...the pain...the significance of what it was to me...and now, i wait. i await the return of it someday. i await the return of the joyful emotions. i await the return of the virtues i was quite able to show but have lost. i wait...